Wednesday, July 28, 2010

2 week follow up

So I did my 2 week follow up fit test for the Insanity workout program that I am trying to follow. I'll be honest here and say that I did NOT work out 6 days a week for the last 2 weeks. I did do 4 workouts the first week and 2 workouts the second week. Yeah I kinda slacked. BUT all of my numbers did go up. I increased my reps in all of the exercises except for 2 where I stayed the same. Improvement in 6 out of 8 exercises isn't bad as far as I'm concerned. I have yet to take my measurements. I'm going to wait until the one month mark for those. So there it is.

I've been doing pretty well on my food intake and calorie counting. I've started using to track my food intake and exercise. I really like the layout of it and the fact that it actually gives me useful tips and advice! So here's to getting healthy and kicking butt!!

Saturday, July 24, 2010


Here's the short version of just what went down in my house. My sis in law texted me and asked if I could watch her 2 daughters and our nephew so she and my brother could go kayaking. Her oldest daughter is just at the tail end of pharygitis or mono and my nephew made himself puke all day the last time I watched him. My first reaction was REALLY??? I mean really. She's gonna pawn a sick kid and a kid she's supposed to be watching today off on me? I asked for a definite time and she has never texted me back. I told my Hubs and he says he'll be pissed if I watch the kids. He's not even going to be here!! He has to work!! So why would he be pissed?? Annoyed from both my sis in law and my Hubs right now.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Stolen idea

So one of my other blogger friends posted about her general lack of sex drive. I'm gonna steal that topic. Why?? Because I have ZERO interest in sex. I mean I can see a hot guy and think hmmm he's hot, I bet he'd be fun to __________. My poor husband thinks it's him. That I don't love him anymore. When that's not the case at all. I love him dearly, but every time he touches me I pull away. I know it has a lot to do with my weight and that I just don't feel sexy/attractive. I know it has a lot to do with the fact that we are basically roommates these days. I know it has a lot to do with the fact that my husbands idea of foreplay is grabbing my butt and saying come on. Why is it so hard for me to just enjoy sex and enjoy the fact that my husband loves me and my body just the way it is? I personally blame my issues on years of Mormon religion being shoved down my throat about being chaste and virtuous and waiting until marriage. Being the submissive wife and all that jazz. It's just not me. Never was. I used to be really sexually independent. Is that the right term? I was able to speak to my partner openly about what I liked. I've somehow lost that ability in the 12 yrs I've been married. I'm in my mid thirties and my doctor says it's normal. He has lots of female patients saying the same thing to him. But yet there's no solution....therapy is an option. But I've kinda been there and done that and it didn't help my sex drive one bit. So what do I do? I'm not sure...

Monday, July 19, 2010


Ok I was all gung ho last week with this Insanity workout thing and now this week I've completely fizzled. My sis came into town on Thursday and that kind of threw a wrench into my workout/diet routine, but really it's more of an excuse than anything. She would have worked out with me at any time while she was here. We did workout on Friday though! So I really only skipped two workouts last week. Today though....yeah...just. not. feeling. it. I'm hoping my child will nap later and then I can fit a workout in. It's nearly impossible to workout if it's just her and I in the house. She watches and jumps on my back and giggles and really makes it hard to focus on what I'm doing. So let's cross our fingers for a nap, shall we?

In other news, I was recently hired to be a nurse assistant at a local hospital. I'm totally psyched to be working even if it is only per diem work. I haven't worked in 3 yrs!! On the other hand though I'm completely freaking out because I have no idea how I'm going to balance a job, school (nursing classes are ridiculously paperwork oriented), being a mom, wife and friend, and still have time in there for me. As it was this last semester nearly killed me!! So we'll see how it goes. I keep thinking about my mom. How the hell did she do it?? She was a single mom raising 4 children, she worked, went to and actively participated in church activities, went back to school in her 40s for her masters, was able to attend all school and sport events for us kids, kept a full vegetable garden and flower garden, and cooked from scratch every night. Where in the world did she find the time? I just have one child that isn't into any sports at the moment and I feel pressed for time. Maybe it's because she had to do and be all these things. I don't just seems crazy to me.

So's to Motivation!! I really wish I had some...

Friday, July 16, 2010

Ho Hum

I made it through hump day and I made it through Thursday. I skipped my workouts yesterday because of my super hectic day. I was running around all day. I ate pretty healthy until dinner when I ate TWO burgers my hubs made. I waited to long to eat and was starving by the time 8 pm came around. Today I'm back on it even though I'm feeling a bit ho hum. I'm going to try and get 2 workouts in today and stick to my healthy eating. So that's it. You're all updated now. :)

Monday, July 12, 2010

Battle of the Bulge

Today I kicked off my latest attempt at losing this God forsaken weight I've been carrying around for almost 7 yrs!!! I took all my measurements and weighed myself (I cried), and took the Fit Test for the Insanity workout video/dvd. The fit test alone just about killed me. I was so winded and tired by 15 minutes into it I didn't know how I was going to finish it, but I did. So far I like that the video ENCOURAGES lots of breaks if you need them. I needed them. Bad. I'm going to take some before pictures and in 60 days I'll take some after pics and hopefully I'll be pleasantly surprised! Why can't it be as easy to lose it as it is to put it on!!??!!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Who has a green thumb??

My Bitter Little Man does. These are some of the flowers that have sprouted up so far in our little hodge-podge flower garden. I had NO idea that dahlias got so BIG!!

Cooped Up!!

I have a serious case of cabin fever!!! I have been kind of stuck in my house for almost 2 weeks now (thanks to a sick child and babysitting my nieces and nephew and it being like 100 degrees here!) and I really think I'm starting to lose it! I've gone out to get a couple groceries and whatnot's but I haven't really done anything for ME in a while. So this morning I'm going to head to the gym all by myself, then do some window shopping all by myself, and then I'm going to indulge in the The Twilight Saga: Eclipse ALL BY MYSELF! It will be wonderful even if I will be sweating my tush off in the process!!! I wonder if other Moms out there are as desperate for alone time as I am??