Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Wedding Renewal

Just a quick update to let y'all know that the wedding went off without a hitch and it was a PERFECT night!!! I renewed my vows with my husband and finally after 10 yrs I feel like we've closed a chapter in our lives together. It was always like unfinished business not having my dress and ceremony and party. It was also nice to finally have family included in the happiest day of my life. I love my Bitter Little Man so much that it hurts and aches in my chest some times. I think a lot of people were surprised that after 10yrs I still teared up during my vows and I still cried when I walked down the aisle with him. I had a few friends laugh a little at me, but that's ok, they can laugh. I feel like it just goes to show we got something special!

Here's a couple pics for your viewing pleasure!

Thursday, December 18, 2008


Hi. I haven't blogged in quite a while due to a certain nosey and not-so-nice family member. But I'm back! This weekend I will celebrate my 10yr wedding anniversary!!! My hubby and I are renewing our vows and doing it up the way we would have done it 10 yrs ago (if we had had any money to speak of).

A lot has changed in 10 yrs. Bitterman joined the Marine Corps (that's where our adventure began), we've grown, become responsible human beings (sort of), got out of the Corps, had a kid, bought a house, lost a baby, partied, learned how to cook together, have made some amazing friends, have travelled and thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. Of course, we have had our not so great times, what couple doesn't? But on the whole I feel like I picked to best guy in the world to share my life with.

So as this huge day approaches I can't seem to focus on all this great, exciting stuff. All I can seem to think about is the fact that I have a really lame Dad. My dad was a GREAT dad when I was young. He's was supportive, caring, fun, and tried to really hard mold and teach us kids. I'm not sure where he lost that ability to be a father, but he did. He will not be coming to my renewal this weekend because of the fact that he can't seem to scrape up $500 (I even offered to pay for his plane ticket and he still came up with excuses!). I gave him a YEARS notice. He still couldn't do it. He called me tonight to tell me he'd be thinking of me on Sat. I lit into him. Then just as I started crying and getting really upset he says he has to go because they need him at Bingo. Seriously?? BINGO???? Why would you call to talk to your daughter from Bingo?? AND how could he not understand how important it is to me that he dance with me at my wedding or come support me and my husband or just to see his kids that he hasn't seen in 2 or 3 yrs??!!! How does a father not feel the tug on his heart to be near his children and grandchildren??? I just don't understand it and it has completely broken my heart. I'm disappointed and let down. I really hope no one asks about him on Saturday...